This blog entry will probably not make a lot of sense. I am a walking zombie...but it is the best feeling in the world! We welcomed our daughter Mamie Grace into the world just 4 days ago.
First, let's address the name.
We either get - "How cute!" or "Oh. (awkward pause) that's nice" - it's a love it or hate it name. We love it.
You say it like Amy with an M in the front. It was a semi-popular name in the 1920's...don't be jealous. Mamie Eisenhower was a first lady. Meryl Streep nicknamed her daughter Mamie. That's all I got.
We named our beauty Mamie because it is my husband's Grandma's name...and his Great Grandmother's name. When we told Rod's mom the name...she cried like a baby. That was the only reaction I cared about. She loved it. Grace is my great grandmother's name. I love the legacy my daughter carries...a legacy of strong, beautiful women.
We call her Mames, Mamers, Mamie Bean, Mamie Boo, and it's only been 4 days.
She is so content. A happy girl. Except when we change her diaper, or bathe her...Then she screams like a stuffed pig. It makes me laugh.
Flashback to 4 days ago and I can't believe we are here. I was induced at 1pm on Saturday the 8th. Mamie had low amniotic fluid, and it was time for her to come out. In the hours that followed, I could tell something was wrong. The nurses were so wonderful keeping things smooth, but with each contraction, Mamie's heartbeat slowed and that meant something bad. Within a few hours, I was on oxygen and they were hoping that things would progress quickly because she was under quite a bit of stress. Lots of doctors filled the room...NICU nurses, respitory therapists and I started to panic. I remember praying, "God, thank you for the last 9 months, I loved every moment of being pregnat. I'm not sure what is next...but please take care of my little girl."
Mamie was born at 11:03 with the cord wrapped around her neck. I know it is not TOTALLY uncommon, but it scared us for sure. She was born in 2 pushes (I rock...that's all there is to it.) :) and the doctors immediately took her. All you can do it wait. Will she be ok? She was perfect. No troubles. All of the "specialists" soon left us with our beautiful new baby. I couldn't stop crying...or shaking. I had a daughter.
Honestly, since then, it has been a blur. I thought I would just instantly remember everything I needed to about being a mom. Ha. I forgot the diaper bag today when taking her to the doctor. She pooped twice at the doctor. Of course she did. Also, WOW there is a lot of extra laundry! I am SO thankful my mom is here. She is our lifesaver. She leaves on Friday - she will have our butts whipped into shape by then. :)
*I apologize for using the words butt and poop in the above paragraph. I don't think you can write a blog about babies without using those words though..just sayin'
I have to say, the best moments of the past few days have been watching my husband and boys with Mamie. Hearing my husband say "I love you more than you will ever know" when he picks her up at three in the morning - makes me cry even now. He loves that little girl to the moon and back - and he's known her less than 100 hours. My boys are so excited to have "Mamie time" - They have a little one on one time with her everyday and I know it makes them feel grown up and special. She loves them right back - she never cries when they hold her and I think that is a gift from God. ;)
One final note. The first day after you have a baby you feel pretty good. You can breathe, the belly goes down a bit and you think - yeah - I look good. The second day after you have a baby, reality hits. Yuckers. I got some work to do. I saw a mom in the hospital waiting room as we left who had a baby that could not have been more than a few weeks old. She was stick thin, no residual belly and she looked liked she stepped out of a magazine. I didn't say anything...just sighed. My husband must have seen her...looked over at me and said "You are beautiful." He kissed me, and I felt beautiful...even 2 days after having a baby - wearing sweats - with no makeup. Ladies, that is an awesome man right there. I will remember that moment forever.
I walked out of the hospital 2 days ago a different person. I am now the mother of a beautiful girl. What a wonderful new beginning. I cannot wait to spend each day with her.